RIP,sir.......

can u imagine?bad things happened again....this time,its something which i guess never ever got anyone can expected it will happen,or mayb,only he himself...........1/3/2010,7pm (malaysia time)....all of us,lost our beloved and best ever law lecturer in our life,Mr.Anantharajah...can u imagine?its already 6.42am of another day now...and its like17hours after we got this bad news,but we are still hoping that,it will be a joke.....me n ivan wong,we just cannot take it.....i cried since i knew about it and i sat down infront of my lappie.....swapping through all his funny picts...this is the most unexpected incident ever happened in my life...mayb,things jus came too sudden....non of us can accept it....non of us can believe it....we choose to hope that it will be just a joke....the biggest joke....sir,non of us will angry about u,non of us will blame u,if u come to the fb wall n post that its jus a joke,k?can u make it?jus for all of us ur beloved students,can u?susan msg me.....she said: "can u jus tell me its not the truth?i jus fucking received his call last 2 days n now u tell me he passed away?!!tell me..jus tell me its a joke,wei..." ivan wong msg me....he said: "wei,im so regret that i skipped my last sat's class with him...i want to go to his house and makan with him....i want to drink with him in bilik buaya...i want to listen him calling me ah pek....im still hoping that all these are jus jokes...i was stunned when i received call from zing.....although i jus know him for 3years,but i really respect and admire him....i promise him n myself that i will make myself the successful person in malaysia n let the whole malaysia know who m i n i gonna tell them my mentor is Mr.Ananth....its 6.40am now and i still cant sleep....i cant close my eyes as he wil jus appear in my mind....." when i called zing,she was actually sobbing...she told me: " i heard ppl say that Mr.Ananth died!!...i dunno wat happened!..." n guat lee was the one i asked her,i was crying since jus now i came in my room,can i hug u n cry together???....then she replied : "i go and find u now" and she came in to my room....we talked for awhile...n she came to my side,start putting her hand on my shoulder,and i start hugging her n talk n cry!!all of us cried together,for u,sir......u know? n guat lee said: "he used to call me darling too,wei....n he always ask me for popiah from taiping whenever he saw me....the vr last time we met was in Help campus and everything was so rush n we only got to smile to each other,then i left......i thought im ok....i thought i hav no feeling on his death...but,now i can tell u,its impossible that i wont be sad....allow us to cry n sad for 1 day...then life still hav to go on...allow ourselves to be vr vr sad for today...only today..." n she cried...n i cried.........i informed mr.peter,yeelin,jeremy,chenyee,elaine,beehui,jun,wilson,carrissa,xian....nobody seemed to believe it.....jus asked me,what?!!!are u serious??!!when?!!!wat happened?!!! and i jus answer,just happened today....serious heart attack after meeting... and finally 1hour later i get the news confirmed by ivan after he get to contact the son,sanjay...and he rushed to his house............n around few hours later,he is back..n he told me....the wife is so sad...sanjay and arjay seemed to be ok....n i duno how their life is to be going on since sir was the only one whos working...they lost the root of their family....and because he has heart prob,so they will only be getting vr little amount of compensation from the insurance co.....aveena still hav 3 years to go for medicine....n sanjay hasnt even got his degree yet....n arjay has been lepak-ing for 2 years...n the wife hasnt been working for 20over years....i was like...wth....how is this going to carry on???3years more to go for medicine in Aus....and 1 is taking llb as us too....how they gonna afford it?me n ivan really hope that they can get help from the frens who are vr rich....we felt lucky that sir was a vr vr nice person...he has got alot of good frens around...so things should be alright...lets pray hard for that.....
i seriously regret.....regret for not going to find him and at least for a drink or two...or a meal..before i left...or mayb jus buy some special chocolates or cakes...jus to thank him....thank him for helping me n teaching me whenever i really need his help....honestly,he ffk me before.....he screwed me up before for advising me to join nirwana ......he used to bullshit alot since i knew him 4years ago.....but,he is still in some kind,special to us.......we still love him....we still respect him.....the funniest,n smartest ever law lecturer i ever met.....the moment with him,its all filled with laughter...happiness....u just cant imagine how much dirty words he used to say.....how much bullshits he used to throw to us....how much laughter he created for all of us......sentence that he used to say will be like : "im 23 this year..and im forever 23..." ; "teh tarik nipis,pls"; "u stupid asshole!" ; "you dun try to be funny,okie!" ; "you bloody fool" ; "you shut up bitch!!" ; "i gonna screw ur backside" ; "hallelujah(every end of class)" ;......much much much more which i used to listen it since 4years ago i knew him in March intake Alevel class in kdu,pj.....his marking on my paper...his hand writting on the white board....his way of answering phone....his msg ringtone...his lv wallet....his way of laughing....non of us will forget,i guess.....and i told ivan,remember,he used to be someone who love to create laughter and loves to laugh out loudly...n it was so cute....so,2days later,send him away with a little smile,at least on my behalf.......
my plan to buy him some special alcohol,and chocolates,is screwed up now.....jus totally screwed up.....why....why....im such a failure....i failed to appreciate someone who i need to appreciate......today,he went for classes in help...then went to kgns for meeting...then he just get sudden heart attack....n although there was a doctor there,but he jus couldnt save him....n,ivan told me,he used to hate wearing coat with tie...but today,he died with it.......i was like,wth....y?y jus dun let him leave in a better way....ivan told me,he might have foreseen or have some special feeling or signs that he is gonna leave the world..so out of sudden,he smokes back.......i jus,dunno y........he only used to drink,drink,and drink..but not smoke.....so,i duno.....i can only tell ivan and myself n everyone,mayb he is jus too tired.....he was too tired of rushing here and there...teaching here n there....although i know he will be missing the 18holes golf course and the beer.....ivan asked,y good ppl always died so early?i can only answer him,bcoz good people are al tired...as they used to treat everybody so well...they used to love everybody....they used to take care of everybody....they used to concern about everyone...they used to do everything for every1....they used to do their best for the world....this is good people....so they will jus feel so tired after some time....n mayb its time for them to leave this tiring world to another better 1,which they can jus sit back n relax,while looking after us from the far far heaven....
sir,khai wei cant do anything for u anymore since im so far away here..i feel so sorry,that im not in malaysia now..that i couldnt go n pay my last respect to u,at least..but ivan promised,he will do so for me....pls remember,u r always the best ever leturer for us...every1 of us who ever be ur student before.....u r just so great for us.....we wil never forget about u....i know u can listen to all the words i m telling u now....sorry for didnt meet u for the last time before i left...so sorry.....i miss u...i really miss u........thx for helping me in this tough route of law..without u,its impossible that i will be here in newcastle today...i will always remember,ur voice,ur laugh,u calling me darling,ur dirty jokes,and all of the knowledge that u taught us .........everyone of us will try our best to pass our degree this year and get our LLB qualifications,and shouting out loudly : "THANKS TO MR.ANANTH...MY BEST LECTURER EVER!!!"....
may ur soul rest in peace,my dearest sir..........

2/3/2010-7.30am